at-grandmother was sitting on a beach chair in her bathing suit - wearing a big floral visor, as she always did. Relaxed and unafraid. She was calm. She said, "Get to the West Coast while you still can". She looked at Peter and smiled, gave me her blessing to move forward with him. She said he was a lucky being and lucky for me. I wish I'd touched her hands before I woke up. The first time Tip Nanny has made herself so present to me in a long time. I am moved.