Lulls and Explosions

It’s such a strange feeling to itch for pending adventure and freedom while moving at a snail’s pace through my daily work-related affairs.

It seems as though bits of this year will be in fast-forward while the days, weeks or months leading up to those next bits seem so tedious and laborious.

As I’m just getting into the year, my pre-conceived notions of it seem to narrow down events to lulls and explosions. In reality, it will all zoom by and it will all be crucial.

However, certain elements are definitely taking precedence: school and art related elements are always in the forefront of my mind.

I’m finding it incredibly difficult to remain dedicated to work (a job I’ve been at for almost 3 years now). I always thought of this job as temporary and as a side-gig to my bachelors degree. Now, the time has come to make a decision about my next career move. Stay with my present job until I leave for Vancouver? Or risk it and get something new (more stimulating, invigorating, motivating, more career oriented) for only 6-7 months before moving across the country? A lull or an explosion?

Is my apprehension about leaving my job caused by rational thinking (it makes sense to stay here since I’ll be leaving shortly) or fear of something new (putting myself and my design skills out there for the world to see and judge)? I’m hoping the latter will be proven false. I never fancied myself a pussy; but then again, I never fancied myself a very rational thinker.