Lulls and Explosions

It’s such a strange feeling to itch for pending adventure and freedom while moving at a snail’s pace through my daily work-related affairs.

It seems as though bits of this year will be in fast-forward while the days, weeks or months leading up to those next bits seem so tedious and laborious.

As I’m just getting into the year, my pre-conceived notions of it seem to narrow down events to lulls and explosions. In reality, it will all zoom by and it will all be crucial.

However, certain elements are definitely taking precedence: school and art related elements are always in the forefront of my mind.

I’m finding it incredibly difficult to remain dedicated to work (a job I’ve been at for almost 3 years now). I always thought of this job as temporary and as a side-gig to my bachelors degree. Now, the time has come to make a decision about my next career move. Stay with my present job until I leave for Vancouver? Or risk it and get something new (more stimulating, invigorating, motivating, more career oriented) for only 6-7 months before moving across the country? A lull or an explosion?

Is my apprehension about leaving my job caused by rational thinking (it makes sense to stay here since I’ll be leaving shortly) or fear of something new (putting myself and my design skills out there for the world to see and judge)? I’m hoping the latter will be proven false. I never fancied myself a pussy; but then again, I never fancied myself a very rational thinker.

Wearing my purple stone for good luck

Wow, is it really 2010?

Did I just turn 24?????
When did I become an adult? This blog was started in anticipation of my 24th year, the year of enlightenment (not my first encounter with enlightenment and not my last). This year has a lot to live up to. For some reason, I’ve been drawn to 24 and looking forward to it for a long time. We will see what it brings… It’s already started off with a bang.
Was I selected to be a part of a marketing competition?
RECOGNITION!
3 Months of intensity ahead?
Check.
Italy in…103 days???
I haven’t even wrapped my mind around it but whenever I allow myself to wander towards thoughts of my glorious adventure ahead, the ignition gets lit and my brain starts to rumble and I race through the thoughts before getting pulled back to reality – just before the having my mindblown! It is mindblowing!! Don’t want to completely loose my sanity due to excitement. I need my feet on the ground. After all, there are too many things that require my immediate attention!
Graduation in 5 months?
I can’t even begin to explain the emotions this brings up. It’s time to be done, I want to finally give birth to this degree! But I sense the postpartum looming.

And. And. And. And……. So many things happening.
This will be the quickest year of my life and one of movement. My Chinese year and therefore, my lucky year. It’s time to move and take advantage of my pending freedom from JMSB. I’ll allow myself to jump to the thought for the purpose of this blog, but I do this seldom (as mentioned – too much to focus on right now) so I have to soak it in when I do daydream about it, ok, here it goes,…. VANCOUVER IN A YEAR (with the only person that I’ve ever wanted to share this type of adventure with)

Wow and wow.

Obviously my mind is all over the place and my days are flying by.
I’ve officially jumped in.
This is not a time to sit back, be discreet or blend in. This is my YEAR!