(The fact that I'm posting this 12 days into the new year just shows how detached I am from my motivation and personal creation.)
So.... I've been out for a minute. Several minutes, infact. Getting lost in the numbingness of the job and searching (lacklusterly) for who are am as a creator in the midst of all of this.
A new year but this one feels... different. For those of you who are still in school, soak it up. I'm jealous of you. The pending semester always laid out the beginning of the new year so clearly - your path is right there in front of you. All you have to do is keep going about your student-life day-to-day. Studying, learning, expanding the mind in the process. You are preparing yourself for the next step and it's virtually effortless; the professor tells you what to do and you do it and VOILA, you have learned something new, and in the process, you have shed a layer and gotten closer to who you will become.
I don't know. I'm just missing school. Feeling stagnant for the first time since I took a semester off between CEGEP and university.
Who am I as a designer and creative person when all my work is produced for others? It's tough to stay in touch with yourself. You loose track of time, loose track of the passion that you had during school and before you know it, you haven't created anything for the fun of it in months.
God, listen to me, I sound like I've been in this business for years. During the holiday vacay I was honest with myself and attempted to reconnect with my seemingly lost conviction. Having faith in your gut and stepping out of something comfortable and into something new has become difficult for me - it never used to be. Hence my need to reconnect with my self-confidence. Maybe it's an attitude change that I need, maybe it's a change of space.
But I am where I am and I want to feel balanced and fulfilled even though I not entirely satisfied with my present employment; it is the perfect season for a kick in the ass. The resolution season.
I was inspired by my friend, Phil Ha. Witty blogger, sharer of cultural-musical-interesting-
I'm jumping on the bandwagon. 10 realistic resolutions to center me, keep me creative and allow me to evolve spiritually.... Or something along those lines.
1 - Trust my instincts and act on them:
Sidenote to this one: Don't feel ashamed or guilty for being honest when it comes to my career and future path. Open my eyes, speak what I see when necessary and proudly display my emotions and thoughts on my face (i.e. cover pic)
2 - More Yoga:
Otherwise I'll be hunched over permanently by the end of 2012. And also, to give my mind a few moments of peace during the week.
3 - Live more organically:
Food, karma, give/take with the earth, have plants/possible garden, follow the weather, dress for the seasons, cultivate the good and avoid the aggressive, more local support
4 - Do more drawing for leisure
5 - Pass on my positives to others:
Passing on my good moods, absorbing the benefits of t.a.ing and passing on my knowledge, offering drawing classes to children... holding the door for others, and so on.
6 - Earlier rising
7 - More baking bread:
With my whole self involved. Leaving the thoughts behind and kneading with love and energy.
8 - Actively budget and budget the loans away
9 - One big trip
This song makes me want to visit many places at once:
10 - No electronic devices in bed
And as with every other year, so it doesn't need to be numbered, more tea and more quebec cheeses.
And hopefully, more blogging.... :)
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